Just hate me. I am always the annoying one. Yeah I have sure been REALLY annoying these days and have been getting on your nerves right? Kill me lor. PUNCH ME. SLAP ME. I don't care anymore. I feel like running away so bad. Now I'm thinking of suicide, how it'll end all these shit. I AM SICK AND TIRED AND DISGUSTED BY HOW I GET SCOLDED WHEN IM NOT ENTIRELY AT FAULT. I hate this. lol not like anyone cares. I'm starting to feel that my life is more meaningless every single day....I don't know how to express how I feel by words anymore. I believe you like sis more. It's fine. Because you're my mom. It's really fine. I'll just sit at one corner and watch you pamper her. I suck. I am a spendthrift. I wonder why I wanted to work. Why isn't there work. I wanna tire myself. I wanna sleep. Why can't I sleep anymore. Why am I even alive. God, please stop making life sour. I believe I've had enough. It's been way too long.

That should be me.

When he told me that, my heart felt like it just got shot by a bullet. But I couldn't show it, if not it'd be obvious. Why are you doing this to me? Why am I even vexed over this? I thought I've stopped liking you already? WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME. Ugh. When you don't talk to me, I miss you. But when you talk to me, you always say things that disappoint me, each time. It's hard...it's really hard to like someone. It's impossible. You'll never be mine. Am I not good enough for you? Tell me. I feel desperate.

Haters gon' hate.

Hey vassup.

I'm still..jwwjwkwklqjwlqkqlqlqkqkmwebwkjqlanskabskwjejwhribeiwbeownhwjbdkckekebejkslajdlwjelajsaljajsljdkalajdla in a confused state. ;( really bored rn. Nothin' to do at home..

I'm too lazy to go catch up on things about kpop and all. OH YEAH. to you kpop haters, Y SO MUCH HATE?

You don't understand the songs, you don't have to hate. You find it irritating, fine. You don't have to hate either. Why don't you take some freaking effort to go and listen to it before criticising it? Seriously? It's just like hating on Bieber. It's ridiculous how we can hate on him w/o listening to his songs and all. -_- this is really annoying me. EWWWW KPOP. EWWWWWWW. HOW I WISH I COULD KILL ALL OF THEMMMM. I'd stab you first srsly. lol. "I'D RATHER DIE THAN LISTEN TO KPOP" you make sure you die when I play kpop songs. =) YOU DON'T HAVE TO INSULT THEM. they did nothing to you lol. Don't get how y'all judge even before you listen. Annoying much. But still, haters gon' hate!

i still can't forget..... ;\ why. why are you on my mind from day to night, 24/7? isn't it obvious enough for you to sense it actually?

Random post.

I think I'm the only few among my friends who have been single for the whole of my 14 years. I mean there's nothing wrong with that but sometimes I just feel jealous. Not sure for what reason but yeah.. It feels boring without a person in your life that you can love with all your heart other than my family & god. Well, have to accept it. I've definitely liked guys in my life but none of them knew at all. Ha ha.

I'm still waiting for that right guy ;)

And to that you,
Thank you for the wonderful memories. Talking to you for 1 year++++++++ has been really fun & enjoyable. You're a nice, considerate, caring, funny, cool, honest and a great guy. I believe. It's okay if you didn't remember what you said. As long as I remember, that's all that matters :) so, I've given up. Not gonna tell anyone who you are.

Hehe ok bye!

Things I'll do after getting my pay!

1. Get myself some shorts
2. Treat family to a meal
3. Get gifts for my girls ♥
4. Go for buffets :D hehe
5. Save the rest up even tho not much will be left lmfao.

On the bus rn, heading to Chinatown. Wasnt feeling comfortable at home & THEY were obviously ganging up on mr again. It's fine, immune alr.

Sis sucks. She didn't want to lend me her bag cause she ate my sweets and I scolded her so she poured out everything from her bag onto the bed but guess what? MY PHONE DROPPED ON THE FLOOR. I was seriously damn angry alr now she made it worse. You're gonna get it. Next time you get your phone, I'll drop it purposely. I don't care.

In every smile, there's a mask.

I really have no idea why I'm crying right now. I myself ain't sure either. How am i supposed to tell you the reason when I don't even know?

I'm definitely super famished now. At this time. Yes. 12am.

And why aren't you replying me. Worries plus disappointments. Too much for me to handle. Just hope that my dream isn't true. Stop giving me such dreams please. I want good dreams.

And now I believe that crying is a way to soften someone's heart and that's the time when some people takes the effort to want to know what you're thinking/sad about.

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor.

and to my friends who have failed their S2E, dont give up! This isn't the end yet! The school gave you guys another chance. Treasure it! Even if your holidays are wasted, it is a chance for you to advance to sec 3! Be thankful for that chance & do your best & do me proud! :)

:(

Can't read what my heart is telling me anymore. myvaiwcyabtnrt.

Sigh have been really vexed b/c of this.

Anyways! Dyed my hair :) the colour isnt that obvious unless I'm under bright light. :p well, life has been good. Yesterday was my first day working! SUPER tiring but it was kinda fun b/c I was working w my friends :).

We packed beer, pasted stickers on cartons, made boxes, pasted stickers on the cans of beer. Yeah stuff like that. We packed a total of 10368 cans of beer which is 8 palettes of beer lol. The aunties there were really irritating -_- JUST SHUT UP.

Stayed over @ bff's house on mon and I lost my freaking ezlink ;( devastated. MY FACE ON THE CARD. I have no extra some more.....sobs :(

My hair looks kinda maroon in that pic but nah. It's supposed to be light brown sort of thing :o

Concert!

Hey! :)
2 days ago was the band and choir EOY concert! It was hella blast man. Seriously we rocked \m/ hehehe.

Okay so I did go out of tune for some ;\ sobs. But the concert was still good tho! Overwhelming responses :) took many pictures aftermath! Yay ^^ gonna miss the sec 3s :( that was their last concert.

I ♥ FSB!

Friends.

Don't tell me I haven't been nice ok. Just because I HIDE things from you? In the first place, tell me what I've hid. Roflmao. Please don't bullshit. Give me proof before you accuse me.

You always speak sarcasm. It's freaking annoying jsyk. Sarcasm aren't supposed to be used all the time. Oh btw, you're not funny n_n don't try so hard ok? Your jokes AREN'T funny at all. It's lame. I just didn't want to say it. I'm not backstabbing you or neither did I because I say things in front of you and not behind you.

By saying "can you shut up? I'm waiting for you to keep quiet because you keep talking and talking" or whatever, it hurts me ok? With that pathetic face of yours, it's worst. Worst still, SHE agreed. Not because you ask me to shut up or what but you could have gave me some face and not speak this way right? Adding a "IT'S A FACT WHAT!" made it worse. Go and die you both.

I regret asking YOU to join our clique because you, are changing my friends. And what? She has become an irritating ass like you. Taking out my things and hiding it randomly gets on my nerves jsyk. And stop being so rude when you talk to adults, seriously it's damn rude. "HELLO YOU LIKE THAT AH DKWMJDWNDKEBWJ *points index finger while talking*" THAT'S EXTREMELY RUDE. Seriously, go get some manners.

Don't tell me I'm not appreciating the things around me. Do you know me really SO well? NO YOU DON'T. Don't act like you can read my mind and know what's inside me. It's not the first time I'm getting crude comments from you ok. The day after my b'day, you said "BECAUSE NO ONE LIKES YOU MAH *giggles*" funny ah? IT ISN'T. it hurts ok? "oh no I forgot. Because your birthday over alr mah *giggles again*" THAT'S EVEN WORSE. because that would mean that I acted like my birthday was some big event that everyone had to give in to me or whatever. But no right? DID I? NO.

Screw you and your attitude.

You totally ruined my mood.
Bitch. You're the worst friend ever. Friends don't say things like that of each other. You both gossiped about me right in front of me, it hurts so bad. You should really know that whispering in front of someone is rude. Go think about what you've done and said. Don't say "WE DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING?!" because you did. You just don't know that the thing you do hurt others. I believe this has reached my limits. Oh right, you guys were guilty because you went to admit it on your own ;) I didn't pinpoint at anyone LOLOLOLOL joke. Blocking me just shows you're a coward that can't accept facts. Don't say I'm tired of scolding. I will never get tired of scolding :) don't say I'm petty because this has gone on for a long time.

So what if I complain all the time? If you can't take my shit, don't be my friend. I don't need friends like you.

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Skipping that part, yesterday was the juniors' recital night! It was kind of boring LOL. had fun w biqun tho!! Thanks :DD. I LOVE YOU BQ!!!! HAHAHA. the dinner was good tho, the TARTS (y) hehehe ok bye-bye.

Ideal guy?

Sometimes my friends and I talk about ideal guys..but I just am not REALLY sure about what really is my ideal guy like. But I really like guys with dimples, honestly lolol. They look super cute!!!! Ok and I shall elaborate on my ideal type ;333

He should not be childish all the time, that gets on my nerves LOL can't stand guys that are super lame. Ok and...he should be caring, doesn't mind my rants, cute/sweet looking, double eyelids!!!!!!!!!! That's a total plus heh. And like must be outgoing, playful but not overboard, FUNNY (super imp to me), honest with me, don't make up stories just to cover up the truth to not hurt me and stuff like that. I like boys with cute hair LOL like those that are t super spiky which makes them look super "cool" but I'd prefer those with flatter hair but nice one la. If not nice, go shave pls. LOL. And hmm, the way he speaks must not b lik tis yeah. Mhmmmmm, HE MUST BE TALLER THAN ME OK. IM SUPER SHORT ALR :( I like same aged relationships LOL, is it just me? I think it's cute. :p

Hehe ok bye this was a random post, I'm bored.

Shagged.

Super shagged from band practices because of the early mornings. :( today's practice was like what, about 4-5hrs???

Bish. Get over it.

If.

At least I understand how this is going on. Hmmm bored @ home rn. No one asked me out :( sobs. Shall just rot and die.

I wanna watch 23:59. Sobs T_T anyone?

Watching txy...craves for laksa ;) ok bye!

Expectations.

I really HATE how mom comes home so late everyday. I'm jealous of families that go out on weekends and have dinner everyday together. It's a rare thing for my case. Not even cool. I don't understand why so many of y'all hate it when your parents come home. TREASURE IT. others don't even get that PRIVILEGE

I don't know how to phrase this but the feeling sucks because she's always late. No matter what situation, always late. .

Where have your emoticons gone to?

Seriously I am so pissed off rn I can't even describe jslsjssskajalajowjsjwjiwskoqbwoqbdwbxuwndbsksbksahajlqwnjdhswh!!!!!!

FREAK YOU.

Happy go lucky?

On this time, I feel really sad. I just don't express it. I have no one to talk to, it's fine. But no one really takes the effort to make me feel better. I mean, maybe it's because I don't show it and all but sigh idek either.

No one will care if I'm gone right?
Life still goes on. So be it.

Birthday. 1st nov.

2 days ago, it was my birthday. So what? no one really cares tbh.

Could see that mom was really quite reluctant about getting the cake. Well, cake, after 2/3 years, I finally got one. Wasn't that happy though, the mood wasn't good.

Headed down to the class chalet after buying the BBQ food and all w miss tan, Kellyn, sulin and Jiawen. We were super lost and even ended up in changi airport -_-;; after 1hr, we finally reached there. We were supposedly to meet at 1:30pm, but we reached at 4:00pm.

Went into the chalet, BBQ blablabla. Sleeping over was fun, with Denise Gavin edmond puichi Jacky and Jayne! :)

Woke up @ 7am the next day. Surprisingly. LOL. Then headed to ECP. Then went home at 3pm or so.

Didn't tell anyone how Sian I felt. Not gonna elaborate much on it but I really feel that no one cares much. I know birthday = nothing much but it is special to me.....idk nvm bye.