Soooooooo about 3/5 of the holidays have passed and I've done nothing but watched pretty little liars. Lifeless ehhhhh :( Came back from Seoul last Tuesday and I really have nothing to look forward to after that trip that no one was really enjoying except for me. Well. :/ LOL.
So I've been thinking, when I was there for my friends, asking them if they're ok after reading their sad or rather emotional and not-so-happy tweets, I'd ask them if they're ok but no one asks me that yknow. I mean likeeeeee, I don't feel belonged nor important to any of the people I call friends. I'm really searching for a friend that can be there for me and like one that can act like a proper friend. Not that my friends now aren't good but idk....it's just no longer that feeling. Holidays separate me from my friends, I guess.............I really dread school though. When there's school, drama happens. It's so stupid like srsly. Super tiring not just physically (waking up at 6 and having to survive boring lessons and after that cca) but mentally challenging. Maybe it's just me feeling this way about school. Isn't school supposed to be enjoyable, FUN, life changing (LOL) and the place where you make friends for life? I don't see it, maybe just not now. Or maybe things are in front of me but I'm not cherishing it. Just maybe. I know that I look upon friends HIGHLY. They're an important part of someone's life, in fact, everyone. I don't have the courage to talk to my friends least they find me irritating. Is that how most of the people feel too???? Or is it just me again? Mehhhhh. The feeling now is weird. :(
Enough, shall blog about my Korea trip soon since I'm always lazy. Yes. Bye.
英英美代子每次懒惰 describes me. Haha.
