24/7/13

My heart is so proud. My mind is so unfocused.
I see the things You do through me as great things I have done. And now You gently break me, then lovingly You take me and hold me as my father and mold me as my maker.

Chorus:
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abound?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."

At times I may grow weak and feel a bit discouraged, knowing that someone, somewhere could do a better job. For who am I to serve You?I know I don't deserve You. And that's the part that burns in my heart and keeps me hanging on.

Chorus*
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
You are so patient with me, Lord.

As I walk with You, I'm learning what Your grace really means. The price that I could never pay was paid at Calvary. So, instead of trying to repay You, I'm learning to simply obey You
by giving up my life to you For all that You've given to me.

Chorus:
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."

Yes Lord, you're my daily sufficient grace.

So, today I had my history and CL paper 1 prelims and it was quite ok except for the part of history's section b question 2b lol i died i didn't know my ans cos whatever i studied didn't get tested thus limited knowledge haha. Did my SS, emath paper 1, both english papers, CL p1 and history alr! All glory to God because I actually remembered all that was necessary for my SS paper :) Wouldn't have done it without God, really.

55 DAYS TO N-LEVELS!!!!!!11!1!!1!!!

Siao liao no time no time no time. Have been so busy drowning in books these days that I don't even have time to swim :(((((((( So, F&N paper coming soon and i have to start studying for it, if not panic on sunday = die hahahaha.

Currently, i feel like my class is actually bonding......is it just me? But anyway it's good, i guess. LOL. Seriously i haven't been in a class where everyone hates each other before and it's interesting but it sucks lol there isn't the class spirit there and it's just so mehhhh when i go to school cos there isn't that fun and excitement to look forward to.

Excited for more in my life with God's wonderful plan! :)

Time flies

Hey! 

So these past few months have really been a roller coaster. It's crazy, scary yet fun. The ups and downs are like so tiring I thought I was gonna die. From may till now, many things have been going on in my head and I can't seem to sort out what I'm really feeling. My friends have changed, my attitude towards my studies have changed, my cell changed, my life changed quite a lot in just 2/3 months. It's amazing. Things changed for the better, I guess. Generally, I'm so contented with my life now and with the people around me. There may not be as many close friends as I used to have, but I still feel as happy, or, even happier than I was. 

Starting with may, since I haven't blogged in a looooooooonnnnnnnnngggggggg time, I was all slacking and giving no bother to the MYEs, till I got my results and then I realised I can't be getting such results for N levels. Guess what, my goal for N levels is 8 points.....LOL. I find it possible yet so impossible hahaha. It's like I'm aiming for English, Chinese, F&N and CH for an A1, and emath B3 but if I can improve within these 2 months till I'm so good at it, I figured I can actually score just 5 points. I must MUST MUSTTTT achieve my PFP goal. Can't imagine myself going through another year of sec school. So sick of it as much as I'll miss it next time. Overall, May was crap, many things happened, lame things lol. I can't even figure out anymore. Well, I got over it. 

June, HOLIDAYS!!! 

It was great, splendid, awesome, a blast, amazing and super fun!!! Went to tioman on the 14th-17th (I think) and stayed over at jannah's house for an extra night. It was so super fun, tioman is so beautiful! The clear seas, the fishes, the dirty and tiring jungle trekking, snorkelling, thrilling boat rides, breakfast by the beach, it was great. Life was so peaceful. I wish I could stay there for a longer period of time. For some reason, the swimming pool there was so fun HAHAHA though it was an ordinary pool. After the tioman trip, on the 22nd, I went to malacca for a short trip and it was fun! Food, shopping and movie! I forgot what I did on the first two weeks of the holidays HAHAHA but well this holiday was well spent. Went out with my friends quite a number of times, shopping, bonding, getting to know each other better, it was fun! So fun! I couldn't be more thankful. 

July, this month. 

It's crazy, it's gonna be stressful, boring and tiring. Prelims are next week and yet I'm just too lazy to start studying for SS. Seriously SS is so boring and content heavy :( Still, I gotta get it done over the weekends and stuff and the content into my brain. Did my English N level oral on Tuesday and I guess it was kinda good? Probably the best oral I've done in my life, hahaha. Hope I do well though. I was so nervous my heart was pounding like mad like 999999999999999km/h and I couldn't read properly but still managed to calm down after awhile LOL. Hope I didn't sound too nervous!!! Anyway, it's over. And just wanna thank God for all He has done for me, His plans are so amazing, His works are beautiful, I just can't get enough. He answered my prayers and that joy you get when you know your prayer is answered is like, YES!! THANK YOU LORD!! Hahaha. 

Keeping that aside, I have this resentment towards some things and I really hate to feel this anger and frustration in me. It's a terrible feeling and I wanna stop feeling this way but I just can't not think about it. I hope I can stop being so negative soon. It's tiresome. 

The sunset we saw while we were otw back to JB and while I was avoiding cats.......

Got so much closer to banana the last holiday and I'm more than thankful for all the fun times and hilarious moments together. :)))) 

Gotta focus on studying for just another 2 months++. LET'S GOOOOOOOO. 

K bye :) 

60 days left till N level's first paper.