Hey!! Haven't been blogging, but....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
aka

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
thank you for being my listening ear, 
no matter how far, how late, how irritating i am. :")
i love you ♥.

How has it been for y'all? :) Mine was just like any other day, but I don't hate it anyways. :)

Received a few gifts, not bad. Better than last year!

Went shopping w mom and sis yesterday. Spent A LOT. ;\ Bought my new school bag, shoes and etc alr!! ^^.
wahahah ok bye :)

one after another.

SIGH. Can such things just stop happening!? Even if it were to happen, not continuously please...I'm so sick and

feign ignorance.

Things have gotten worse, nothing's going well this holiday.

Arguments, falling out, hatred, it's all over now.

I'm feeling much more relaxed.

Why do people assume? Why can't they just NOT assume when they haven't got the truth out yet?

I sure am a douchebag yeah? Haha, always the one scolding vulgarities. Always the one starting the quarrels, arguments and disagreements. Always the one being evil, mean. Always the one that don't remember things well. Always the one that is getting the "bad person" role. It's fine. I let it all go. But when my best friend sides with something else, what does that prove? There's no trust. So, how am I supposed to deal with this? Close one eye? Or ask her personally? I'm in a lost state rn. Not that I'm feeling super good about losing a close friend since yesterday, but how does that prove friendships really last? I'm being called ridiculous, crazy, unreasonable, damn vulgar and all sorts of other shit that I can't think of. Why? WHY? Why don't you guys put yourselves in my /FREAKING/ shoes before you even say anything in this argument when you aren't relevant. Don't even start on what a "GOOD" friend you are. Look, for this past year, I have cried, ranted, felt sad and frustration too many times that it's just fine after I wake up the next day, it's just like a daily routine. But in this number of times that I have been feeling those ways, how many times have you comforted me? How many times have you asked me what's wrong or even gave some concern? Not just that, I'm alwaaaaaaaaaaaays, always the one that has something going on in this "clique", so called. I don't even believe in any of them any more, maybe only 1. ONE. It's better than nothing. And to that you, thank you. :')

As to the rest of our so called "clique", thanks for the wonderful memories. For being crazy, stupid and retarded together. It meant a lot. Until this happened. I'm still wondering who my true friends are. I don't see the point in having many close friends, really. Cause some will still leave you after some time. And how thick skin can it get, when someone said they took all your bullshit, were there for you, when no one else was. When they weren't? Ha, funny how life can get. Please, think back, and see who the hell was the one that was there for you when no one else cared. Who was the one that asked you "What happened?", who was the one that called you up to make sure you were okay? I'll leave the answering to you. Back to the clique part, you, that particular you in this group of us, always siding here and there, being a 2 faced when you don't even realise. You, are the one that backstabs every single one, it's ok, backstabbing is totally O K A Y. Because everyone does that. But you act really close to any one of us when you leave another. It's really irritating. I don't think I'm making sense, so let's just skip it. I've had enough of ALL these crap and arguments. I'm so sick and tired of this. I'm not even lying. Sometimes I feel like dying, no one realises. I'm always dying inside, even when I show it, no one really bothers. LOL, what a joke. Never mind! It's fine. I'm sarah peh, the happy-go-lucky one. Let's end this misery and just stop being friends okay? :D And right, if you haven't realised, you proved that you aren't that bff I know anymore. So, it's over yeah? It's better for you and me, so I don't have to keep doubting my trust for you as a best friend. Ha.

Let's hope next year will be a better year for everyone.

xo.

friend

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noun

1.

a person attached to another by feelings of affection orpersonal regard.

2.

a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends ofthe Boston Symphony.

3.

a person who is on good terms with another; a person who isnot hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?

4.

a member of the same nation, party, etc.

5.

( initial capital letter ) a member of the Religious Society ofFriends; a Quaker.

I don't understand what it means any more, even after checking the dictionary. Nope.

We'll just be acquaintances after this.

Apologies.

Sorry for being hotheaded all the time.
Sorry for being an asshole.
Sorry for blaming yall when it's my fault.
Sorry for being the one that's always arguing.
Sorry for hating.
Sorry for existing.
Sorry for disappointing any of you.
Sorry for not being a good friend.
Sorry for always showing bullshit.
Sorry for being vulgar.
Sorry for not remembering one's birthday.
Sorry for not going to dinner.
Sorry for always scolding y'all.
Sorry for being a god damn bitch.
Bye.

Bad person.

I'm always the one acting at the bad person. Ha ha ha.

I'm already super apologetic. You didn't have to make it worse.

Stands.

Do you know why others feel left out and you don't?

It's simple. Because you make others left out while you make yourself comfortable. That's not very nice.

I mean that's what mostly happens to most of /us/.

I swear I am sick of these bullshit. What rights have you got to get angry at me for such a small thing? Seriously? Omg. Not like I am hanging out w someone else then purposely don't go with y'all what. I'm not in the mood to.

Please go and understand my situation before you even conclude and get pissed off anyhow. I don't care if you're angry at all tbh, b/c this is just wasting my mental strength on feeling angry at you instead of doing better and much more meaningful stuff. This should cut an end. Be thankful I don't want this f/s to be affected and all. Don't call others petty when you are too.

Hey, I miss you.

HEY HO. :)

Met up w Kellyn ahsoh today to go see homin @ the airport!! :) it wasn't as crowded as mblaq, 2pm and miss A's arrival rofl. ALL I TOOK WERE BLUR PICTURES -___- AHHHHHHH so angst. :(

Went to have our lunch aftermath and i was really starving LOL. then we headed to city hall! Had starbucks ;) hehehe. It was raining!!! :D hehehe love the rain :) but hate how it disrupts my journey home ;\.

Then headed to breadtalk for some bread and had a hard time trying to find mineral water that didn't cost too much HAHAHA. walked around and then headed home!! :) it was fun today~~~ hehe. I'm just blogging crap rn b/c i have nothing to blog about :( nothing interesting have been happening at all!!!! THIS HOLIDAY IS SO FREAKING BORING!!! UGHHHHH. AND WITHOUT MY EZLINK CARD, I AM FEELING RELUCTANT ABOUT TRAVELLING ANYWHERE. STUPID EZLINK. WHERE FORE ART THOU, I MISSED YOU SO. I miss you by miley cyrus's kinda nice? :) even tho it's an old song... :p

Sha-la-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la-la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

[CHORUS:]
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

[CHORUS]

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

[CHORUS x2]

(I miss you)

SO I AM CRAVING FOR THE FRIED RICE NEARBY MY HOUSE NOW. RIGHT NOW. I WANT IT NOW. THEY'RE GOING FOR A HOLIDAY FROM THE 4TH TILL THE 25TH T_T. THAT WOULD MEAN I CAN'T EAT THEIR FOOD FOR 21 DAYS, 3 WEEKS. O M G. totally hate it!!!!

well ok bye!!!! :)

Revamp.

Hey :)

Just revamped my blog, i think it looks nice now. :p

Anyway, got the news that there'll be no more work T_T.... and guess what, i only worked a day...scared i might not be able to get my well deserved $50 LOL. Sigh!!! Can't do many things now :(

Have been rotting @ home these days... I want seoul garden and sakae buffet :c.

Going to airport w ahsoh on sat to see homin!!!!!!! AAAAAAAASAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! LOL. so, okay bye. :D hehehehehe.

I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall, you just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running though my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running though my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/avril-lavigne-lyrics/wish-you-were-here-lyrics.html ]

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, oh, oh
No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here