TGIF

Yes, I'm on my way home in the train feeling bored again thus I am writing here.

29 October 2015

Cheryl (it was her actual birthday) and I received a surprise (advance) celebration from my friends when I really did not expect anything from them at all. It feels good to be surprised and believe me, I really was surprised. So apparently they planned this a week ago and I knew absolutely nothing about it. The plan was to tell me that Belle had to go to the toilet and I was supposed to follow her while the rest goes to get the surprise stuff. However, just so happen that I needed to go to the ATM when we were at the interchange so choa and Cheryl waited for me while Jiamin, who was supposed to meet her buyer IN cotton on and belle goes to find MY who had been waiting at cwp for 4 hours alone (thank u so much 😘) to get the balloons and cakes. So, Cheryl, choa and I were waiting outside of QQ rice and suddenly I see the 3 of them approaching with balloons and I'm like omg with my mouth opened in shock HAHAHA my mouth could not help but hang open. So yes there goes and I mean we were really surprised even though I'm not so sure about Cheryl since she said she was already suspecting something HAHAHA but I didn't expect it and I'm really thankful!!!!

And before that in the morning, I texted belle and my asking them if we were going to do anything for Cheryl's birthday because it was today. Belle and MY replied me sorta the same thing and I was like what is happening LOL. Same for Cheryl, she messaged the four of them asking what they were gonna do for my birthday and belle was like "walao can you two just shut up not!!!" HAHAHAHHAA. 

We have forged a beautiful friendship even though we met only in April which has only been about 6 months. I'm so thankful for your efforts and thoughts into preparing this :) Big big thank you to the four of you again! Love you all so very much and I hope our friendship goes a long way! 

Honestly though, I have not received a surprise before in 18 years of my life even though I celebrate it on most years. Birthdays have never been quite important to me since it's just the usual celebrating with my family, having dinner and then cutting the cake. So, I was never excited for my birthday. 

I have done a few surprises for my friends though, and I enjoy planning it and seeing them happy when surprised. Even though it's sometimes disappointing that they didn't do the same thing for me, I did not do it hoping that they would or must do it for me. I give presents to my friends but they don't give me anything on my birthday, it feels slightly shitty but again, I don't buy presents for them hoping they buy for me during my birthday too. It just kinda feel like maybe my birthday don't matter to them but it doesn't make me regret celebrating for them on their birthdays. I think it's just natural for me to feel this way but other than that,  it's all in the past when I could not appreciate how my birthday is actually to celebrate that I lived another year, I grew one year older, wiser and have people around me that I love and love me. I realise that presents are no longer important. Also, I love it when I receive birthday messages that warm my heart!!! People telling me how much they appreciate having me in their life and things like that. Those words are bigger presents than any physical present. 

There are just so many more things to be thankful for rather than physical gifts.

Continuing from yesterday...

So we (cheryl, belle, my) went to chicken up for dinner. We ordered the whole chicken (20pcs), bulgogi fries and 1-for-1 melon bingsu. The food were all quite good, I liked it and I will visit chicken up again. Here are some pictures!

That was a really filling meal. 

Today, 30 October 2015

Nothing special really happened today. School was boring as usual. Ugh 8am lessons. Ugh formal wear. Ugh H modules are so dry. The only thing good about H modules is that it ends at 12:30pm. Other than that, everything else is a dread. Hope lessons become more interesting.

It has been 2 weeks since school started now and I still have not eaten with any of my new classmates. Everyday it's just me, belle and rahman. Hopefully we get to mix with the others soon. 

Tata for now!

Motivation, wherefore art thou

It's another day and I'm currently on the way to school in the train. 

Thankfully, today's lessons start at 9:15am which means one more hour of sleep. 

As everyone knows, RP has a system which changes and shuffles classes every semester, which sucks. I don't enjoy making new friends every 6 months and having to put the friendship I forged in the previous semester further from me. I am so thankful to have met the five girls in the past semester but it just sucks that we aren't in the same class anymore which kinda means taking my motivation for school away from me. I know, I sound so immature and whatsoever but dude????? we grew really close in just a few months' time span and I love it. We have fun together, scold each other, disturb the one who's in love, sing out loud in class and scream at things that don't even make sense. But it's all fun and joy. They were the reason why I even enjoyed school last semester, yes I did enjoy school. It feels like people I enjoy being with and working with have been taken away :-(

I love scolding, talking about our not so painful and difficult life, laughing like shit and eating hot tomato with MY. I love her reaction to my/our scolding and watching her getting scolded by her mother while we're skyping. I love her cute moments when she doesn't realise some things that have obviously happened, happened. 

JM and I kept beating each other in the later part of sem 1 hahaha. I love how we always share the same thoughts towards certain people and their not so understandable actions and words. I love disturbing JM and making her lose her shit (talking to the glass panel....?) and end up laughing like crazy even though she is damn annoyed. 

I love how Belle and I are in the same class now, thank God. I love how she's always scolding people, shouting at everyone when we all starting losing our chill and how she's always laughing at every stupid shit that happens. I love how we always, most oftenly share the same thoughts and views on people/things, (is this an 18 thing? Do people of the same age tend to think the same way?...) bully the 98s ahahahahahah there's just this common channel there. 

I love how Cheryl is so gong, always getting scolded and blamed by us HAHAHAHAHA seriously her life is quite tough with us but we love you!!! I love talking to Cheryl la, she always talks heart to heart shit with me on Skype and share our views on life and relationship shit. I love sharing my life stories with Cheryl cos I feel like she can relate and she also ends up telling me hers. She's also forever complaining about life and sleep (when she chooses to sleep at 12 no matter how many times we scold her for doing so (she's also beside me complaining about her sleep rn)). 

I love how Choa is so considerate toward others (probably not us, HAHA jokes), always acting like an angel like what the heck why is she so nice some times, like seriously when we hate someone we don't give a shit about them but she actually feels bad and stuff. But actually she's not that angelic after you know her la, always judge and laugh at people HAHAHA. Also she is a bit gong at times just like MY & cheryl (probably a 98 thing), which is quite cute but can be quite annoying also cos why r they so stupid HAHAHAHAHA JK LA I LOVE ALL OF U INNOCENT LITTLE SHITS. 

I just love everything about hanging out with them!!!!! These things are what made my sem 1 super fun and enjoyable. I think people hate us for being so noisy but who cares. 

No matter how much drama has happened in the previous class, I don't care because honestly those people who weren't close with me, those who I spoke less than 3 sentences to per day and those who hate me, don't matter to me. I still prefer my previous class even after all the lame shit that occurred. 

But I personally feel that there's one thing to be thankful is that I don't wanna be stuck with the class I'm currently in for 3 years or so lol. Maybe it's because everyone already made friends in the previous semester so no one feels the point in making friends in this new class which also sucks and defeats the purpose of RP changing everyone's classes cos in short, no one gives a fuck about making new friends and socialising with people you can't choose in your working life next time. 

Well, I just dread school everyday like I'm dragging my body to hell. School currently sucks but I hope it'll get better. Maybe it's just the second week that's why but ughhhhhhHhHHhHhH I feel like dying, at least my soul is. 

In a nutshell, I feel like my excitement for attending school has been thoroughly sucked away. 

I hope I can find my motivation for school really soon.